WOUND MIGHT HEAL BUT SCAR WON'T VANISH

The wound might heal yet the scar won't vanish.
It makes me sad seeing people suffer from heartaches because I know being on that stage of your life is not easy. 


It's like battling to live while your heart is already dead. 
Similar to pumping blood for your heart to keep it going and for you to stay alive. 


But the overall scenario seems like trying to revive a fucking organ that has been stabbed ten thousand times. 
Indeed, the aftermath of "separation anxiety" kills you to the point that you're no longer thrilled on the idea of living the life you have. 
To the extent that you just want to lay in bed and let tears stream down on your cheeks.


It's deplorable that the only thing that knows your grief is the moon who peaks at your window seeing your silhouette at night. 
So before y'all try to break someone's heart, 
You should know that it is not easy going through shitty heartaches. 


Some of these people whom hearts have been broken are not strong enough to endure the heartaches that they have been suffering. 
The trauma you've caused is for lifetime and there will already be a gap when you try to fix each others' wounds. 


Lastly, I've come to realize that the wound might heal yet the scar won't vanish and that's the saddest thing after all.


- R -

Written By Siti Khadijah Halil

IF YOUR GIRL MAKES AN EFFORT

Dear boys,
If your girl makes an effort to keep the relationship,
You should keep her.


If she does sweet gestures and efforts to make you happy,
You are so blessed.
Not all girls will do something like that.


If you have a girl who loves you more than the material things,
You should protect her heart.


If you already found the one worth all the love and sacrifices,
Don't take her for granted.


Genuine girls are hard to find.
You might regret it in the end.

Written By Siti Khadijah Halil

WHEN YOU STOP SHOWING EFFORT TO A GIRL

When you stop showing effort to a girl, that's when she'll start to think that you're not choosing her anymore.
That's when she'll be convinced that your heart's not in it anymore.
And that's when she'll believe that you aren't falling in love with her every day anymore because effort is everything to a girl. 


Whether you've been with her for 2 months or 2 years,
Effort is something that she's always going to expect to see,
Because it's the kind of reassurance she needs for her to continue making an effort of her own because she can't be only one trying.

 
She can't be the only one wanting to make it work, and she can't be the only one giving it her all. 
As a man, you should always be chasing her and making her feel like she's everything to you.
And no, that doesn't mean you always have to make some grand gesture to show her that you care.


But it's the little things that win her over. 
Without effort, it just makes her feel like you're bored with her.
She's no longer making you happy and she's just not good enough for you.


And a girl can only feel that way for so long until she feels like you're not worth the effort anymore. Maybe it's because she would make such an effort to be with you and she would like to believe that you'd do the same for her.


But if you really did care about her, making an effort should be something that's natural.
And it shouldn't be difficult.
So if it is, then don't be surprised if that's how you're going to lose her and once you do, it would take even more of an effort to get her back.

 
- Teddy Nguyen -

Written By Siti Khadijah Halil

SOMETIMES, IT'S HARD TO BE YOU

In this world, if you wanted to be yourself, judgment will follow. 
Stereotypes are everywhere. 


If you have tattoos people will say that you are into drugs or you are a bad person. 
If you wear sexy clothes, people will label you as a bitch. 


If you have a lot of guy friends, people will think that you wanted to get laid. 
If you have a lot of girl friends, people will think that you are gay. 


Sometimes, it's just too hard to be happy. 
It's too hard to be you.

Written By Siti Khadijah Halil

FORGIVE YOURSELF

Dear girl,
Forgiving him isn't how you start moving on. 
Forgiving yourself is. 


Forgive yourself for staying for as long as you did. 
Forgive yourself for trying as hard as you did. 
Forgive yourself for giving him as many chances as you did. 
Forgive yourself for letting him have such control over you. 


Forgive yourself for allowing him to hurt you. 
Forgive yourself for not being able to see the kind of person he really is. 
Forgive yourself for wasting time that you aren't going to get back. 
Forgive yourself for making the effort he never fully appreciated you for. 


Forgive yourself for handing back the pieces of your heart to him each time he broke it. 
Forgive yourself for wanting to make it work so badly that you blocked out the idea of him being toxic for you. 
Forgive yourself for refusing to let it go even though you had every reason to. 
Forgive yourself for loving him more than you love yourself. 


The hardest thing to do is forgiving yourself.
But you can't move on until you're at peace yourself and you stop hating yourself for everything you chose to put yourself through for him. 
Once you forgive yourself, you'll be free. 

- Teddy Nguyen -

Written By Siti Khadijah Halil